Guess Who’s Back…Back Again?!
Well, five months later, here I am again, making my I’m so excited to get back to blogging post!
This time I mean it! I’m so very excited to dedicate some more time to writing, as it is one of the ways I get to express myself and reach out to others.
Those who know me, know March was quite the month! I made some very big changes in my life and though difficult, I’m 100 percent sure they were the right ones for me. I am extremely blessed with an amazing boyfriend, Marc, and best friend, Taylor who were there for me during a trying month. Many others were supportive as well, but those two were definitely my rocks and kept me from losing it!
In 2015, my absolute dream of owning a CrossFit gym with three of my friends came true. I was fortunate enough to be able to leave my teaching career and start a new path. Nothing made me happier than being able to say I “co-owned” what I truly believe to be one of the best gyms around. I was able to workout, write workouts, and coach others for my living! How awesome is that?!
Fast forward a few years later and I started to realize I just wasn’t as happy as I used to be. I tried to deny the feelings I was having and didn’t really know why I was having them. I started to lose my passion for working out. I found myself forcing myself to do a workout, rather than getting excited to have the opportunity to do one. This absolutely killed me, as CrossFit opened so many doors for me personally. CrossFit helped me grow into a confident woman. I overcame many self-image issues and finally believed in myself. CrossFit helped me realize it’s okay to be me. If people didn’t like “me” it didn’t bother me anymore.
I started to scratch at the surface of my unhappiness and decided that I wanted to do more than co-own and coach. I wanted more in my life to help support the way I wanted to live. So, Taylor and I began Real Estate classes in January. Marc put up with me working at the gym, doing business at home, going to night class two times a week, and trying to study any free chance I had.
As we finished up school late March, something still wasn’t right. I was super excited to start my career in real estate, but that feeling of unhappiness wasn’t gone. I had merely put a band-aid on it.
After some really hard soul searching, I figured it out. Co-owning a business was not right for me. I have always told Marc, “I want to help people. I want to help people reach their goals.” I realized that through the back end part of running a business, this dream and goal of mine was being pushed aside. I found myself doing more business like tasks than I was working on improving my coaching or helping others. The decision to give up my ownership was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. It was my choice and my choice alone. I’d like to give a huge shout out to my partners and to all of the members of the gym for being so supportive!
So, did I make the right choice? Within the last two weeks, I have passed my real estate exam, set up time to meet with an agency, set up personal training sessions with members looking to reach new goals, felt genuinely full of energy and happiness while coaching, read articles about CrossFit, watched mobility videos, and FELL BACK IN LOVE WITH WORKING OUT!!!
Sometimes life doesn’t always go down the path you have planned out. That’s okay. Own who you are. If you’re not happy, remember ultimately you are the only one who can make yourself happy. It’s okay if your goals change. Grow with them and believe in yourself.
